~My Life, Building A Dream CH 4 ~~~~I won’t lie. There have been a lot of tearful heart wrenching moments. I am a very strong willed person; however, when you are the only one, ripping out walls, wielding the hammer, paying the bills & praying for help. It can be a daunting & physically exhausting experience. I have to say I have been so blessed, I am sooo very thankful to anyone who has hopped in and helped me row.
I was mentally prepared to do whatever I had to, to make it work. I just leaped in, threw all my money on the tables, rolled the dice, spun the roulette wheel & prayed… I was all in emotionally and financially!!! I jumped without a parachute, it was fly or die!!!
I should of been afraid, but instead I was so calm and happy. My spirit was alive & I was set free. I felt solid, strong & spiritually grounded. It’s ironic, I am now working longer & harder then I have ever worked for anything in my life. I feel so driven. Everyday I wake up giving it everything I have. My todo lists, have to do lists. Lol… I sleep less, eat less & have a list of goals running on a conveyor belt so long, it’s wrapped itself around the next 5 years of my life.
I have 3 blue prints for my dream, with an endless supply of paper and an open mind to make room for more. My goals are broken down into a daily, weekly & yearly plans. I have pictures and projects on Dream boards. If I see something I like. I add it too my list and believe that I can make it happen. If it feels right and it tugs at my heart, I reach for it & reach for it & reach for it. Nothing seems to high. The impossible is now possible. I will never give up, I will never again, live inside the box. Instead I will make my own box & it will be made with 5 sides and movable walls. I will build with the heart of, Frank Loyd Wright. I shall design my life around the landscape I am given. I will let nature take its course and I will build a life that is opened to possibilities & spiritual growth. I will fill it with love, experiences & the ability to dream. Everyday will be a gift. No journey will be to hard or too long.
I will have the life I dream. With the people I love… I will sit & paint, I will enjoy every sunset and be greatful for every sunrise. I will dream of the beach & watch the stars. I will sit in a boat while someone tries to fish & I will embrace every day & every moment, I am blessed to have them in my life.
My life, my world, my home and my heart gave birth to a new life. The moment I stopped being afraid. I found the strength to believe in myself & to believe that all things were possible. Once I let go & started listening to my heart, a light truely filled my soul & I found so many unexpected & unexplainable miracles.
I am making the road as I go & embracing the journey as it opens up to me. I believe all things happen for a reason & life is always good, if you let it be.
“We can never reach our dreams, if we are unwilling to have them.. Dare to Dream & Reach!! All things are possible if you believe.”
May all good things come from this. Thank you God!!!
Debbie Smalley (Deb’e)
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Building a dream. How this sound magical, in all senses. In the literal sense and in the translated sense.Yes we have that power to build our life and our dreams on the way we want! Great post
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Thank-you for you supportive message. My life really has transformed into a magnificent experience. It’s funny how just a change of mind & purpose can take one place or life and change it into another.
I have been fortunate. My life has always been happy, because I would allow nothing less. I refused to have a bad day!!! So I never did.
I wish I would have been encouraged to follow my dreams when I was a child. My life is so much richer now. Not in monetary value. In fact I have less money. Lol…
It is magical, to feel the glow of your heart from the inside. Life is a beautiful journey.
I began to write my blog to keep myself motivated and focused. I continue to write my blog, to encourage my past students and others, to stop following the rules in life & society. Do what your heart is telling you to do. Just have faith in yourself, be willing to work hard and NEVER give up. If life’s choice isn’t working. Then put a fork in the road & change directions.
Stop worrying what everyone else is doing and thinking. Life is so much sweeter when you make your own path and follow the scenic route.
Happy Travels, to you in life!!!
Have a wonderful Journey.
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What a great message, it is in the line with my life philosophy.Listen to your heart , you will find…as Bryan Adams said, and I agree.I believe in simplicity, and I believe that life is very simple, just people are sometimes complicate. Although I am a lawyer I don’t believe in rules, in fact I don’t like too many rules in my life.Just live your life the best you can.Life is like a happiness, not destination, it is road. journey. I am glad you like my last name 🙂
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Yes, happiness truly is a state of mind. I refuse to let the negativity of the world overshadow my existence. The Yin & Yan’s of life. Finding balance and making it a point to build your own road in life that deliberately looks like nobody else’s.
I think you are right. The more I live my life, like this, the more I believe there is a magical presence that begins to transform you from the inside out. No worries, it is all from God and filled with light & love from the world. I try not to focus on the problems in the world, because there are tooo many battles. Instead I decided for my own self and now for others, that I would instead believe that “All Good things can come from this, (whatever this maybe) Thank you God.”
My only hope in posting my blog is that I might somehow in someway, shine a spark of hope & help create a strength in the life’s of those who feel weak.
Sometimes life weighs heavy, but sooo often the mind carries the blame for the burdens.
So I reach and I hope that maybe , I can change someone’s mind. I can help them look at life in a different way. I am just throwing some spiritual glitter on the world.
Funny thing about glitter!!! One minute it’s here and the next thing you know, It gets everywhere. You can get rid of it. Lol. I hope it works!!!
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PS: Your last name is quite beautiful. It has a very peaceful ring to it.
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