`The value of one single conversation with one human being, at one point in your life, is inestimable’
Donal Dineen
The story and presence of Connor Walsh, a deceased composer from Ireland, only confirmed to me what I have always believed. We never know how our presence on this earth impacts the world & everyone in it.
We all wake each day generally self absorbed in our own self. Often determining the value of our presence in the world or in the day, by those first few seconds our eyes are opened. Sometimes just giving up, before we even get up. Thinking this is not my day.
I am lucky that my attitude & will is strong enough to fight against, my own, bad natures. If I wake up in a rain cloud. I make it a point to get angry & annoyed, at the rainy day attitude. Then I resentfully get up, take a deep breath, grab an umbrella & stomp in the puddles until I laugh at the messes I’ve made. I persist & I persist, until my heart embraces, the dance in the rain. I REFUSE to have a bad day & I will win.
This morning I set out to write about my dreams & my airbnb journey. The next thing I know, one squirrel chased another, down the rabbit hole, only to discover. The tragic death of a musician from Ireland called, Connor Walsh, whom died in March of 2016. I still have not heard his music nor even found his cause of death. All though I get the feeling, he may have taken his own life.
However I read an article, by Donal Dineen. It really just spotlighted a moment that he had with Connor. How a walk in the woods, with a man he barely knew, impacted both their lives. It was just an uneventful moment to most, but to Donal, it was a lifetime event, that changed his life. It confirmed once again, that we may go our entire lives never knowing that we changed someone else’s life, just by existing.
In the last 5 days, I lost two amazing friends. Their presence in my life changed me. They had done nothing special, but they each brought so many heartfelt moments to my life. Just knowing them, forever changed who I am.
(Story time:)
On Monday afternoon, I was sitting outside on my porch, taking a break from my renovation project. It was a chilly, breezy, sunny day. It could not decide if it should snow or shine. Of course as usual, my eye was on the sky & my camera came out to catch the most beautiful cloud formations as they formed in the sky & began to drift past me.
I was thinking about my dog, Mogley, who had suddenly passed 3 days before. I was Quietly saying Hi, as I pictured him, running to heaven on those beautiful clouds. Wishing for a moment of clarity & confirmation, that he was there. Talking to God & all the spirits of my past, praying they would be on the look out, for his beautiful soul. Feeling his presence as I continued to snap shots. I was just sitting in awe, as I gazed at the most beautiful sky’s. Truly, obsessed with the wonder of it all.
A couple hours later, my friend and I reviewed my photos, looking for life in the clouds. (It’s a fun game we play). We both saw that I had captured, the most beautiful profile, of a man looking up at the light with an angel flying above his head & I also found my dog running along the cloud line, in the bottom right hand corner. It was a moment that made our hearts smile.
That evening I received a call, informing me that, our friend , Dustin, had died in his sleep that afternoon. Now, Some may say that I just took a picture of the clouds. But, I believe I captured the beautiful moment when, love opened up in the sky & the heavens, met the earth, for just a moment of hellos & goodbyes.
Goodbye to my 2 sweet beautiful friends, Dustin Rodriguez & Mogley. Your presence changed the world, you will be forever missed.
Debbie Smalley (Deb’e)
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