It’s been a year since my last post. Sometimes life sweeps us up and makes us lose focus, on who we are. It’s amazing what you can find, when your willing to just let go of control & get lost.
I have spent the last year, feeling a little tired and overwhelmed, by the obstacles in my life, that kept getting in my way. Every road that I went down, seemed to end with a wall. I felt like I was just going in circles, With no way forward. Every question, ending with the answer NO! I felt stuck in the mud, with no energy to get out.
It was an internal struggle with myself. Everyday,,,, work, work, work… Never moving forward, in a cycle that seemed like it was never going to end.
Then I remembered a the life saving lesson, that I learned, when I was being taught, how to swim. It changed my whole perspective on things.
The technique is, If you are in the water drowning. Don’t struggle, don’t fight, just relax, gently tread water & float, when your tired.
So I did. I made the decision, that I was going to stop the struggle, quiet the voice that drove me & float, until my life or God sent me a direction.
I was still working my 7 day week. But it was on my terms. I was rushing no where, waking up with no alarm clock & slowly chipping away, at the mountains, of my life.
My friend mentioned, That God told him, to just “Be Still & quite struggling with everything.”
It made me feel good to hear him say that. I had spent the last year, feeling like I was just being lazy or complacent. My inner voice was disappointed in the approach I was taking. Lol. Hearing him say that, made me feel like maybe there was value in complacency.
Things have changed ALOT, for all of us, in the last year. The whole world is getting shook by it’s feet & we are all being faced with new challenges & new destinations. We are ALL traveling down a very different road, without a map.
Although it very scary. Noone could of predicted, we would ALL be in the same boat, together.
I have oddly found a great sense of comfort and strength, in the struggle we are facing. The rise of good people, standing up to help, support & nurture each other, has touched my heart & given me hope for humanity.
I am not making light or ignoring the tragic & heartbreaking things happening everywhere. My heart breaks & weeps, for the loss & the suffering, we have all had to witness & endured.
Yet, in the struggle, my heart has lifted to the cry & I have risen up, to watch the weak get stronger & the tired gain strength. When I look at my last year & review where I was & where I stand now I realize, I have climbed so high. I have accomplished so much and helped so many.
I am proud, I am strong & I am still here. Alive & well… for that alone, I am truly Blessed. To have so little, feel like sooo much, is such a gift. I am so thankful, for every breath of air & every person I’m fortunate enough to meet.
Look for the good & fight for the weak. GET UP & REACH!!!!
May you and everyone you know. Be blessed with good health & protected safe from harm!!!
Deb’e (mywings.blog)
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