When I decided to build my business, there was no road for me to follow. I only had my ideas and my ambitions to guild me. I had no map telling me where to go, bad credit & barely any money. I only had my heart telling me to reach for the unknown and build.
My life has stood, on the edge of a cliff ever since; Taking one blind step at a time. Praying I wouldn’t fall.
I have to believe, if I have the courage to keep building. The road would just make itself, as I went. 1 brick, 1 paint stroke, 1 step, 1 more breath, 1 penny at a time. I could can do this.
It is the riskiest & scariest thing I have ever done; I go to sleep at night envisioning my next steps. Seeing all the possibilities, watching them play out in my mind. Over and over, until I find a way.
Nothing has ever felt so right. Now, when I’m faced with a failure or challenged by fear. I no longer want to quite or run. Instead I just take a moment to stop. I evaluate the problem, look for the message and wait for the answer to come.
I always have to remember, I started this crazy adventure because I was stuck in a snowstorm. My Life was turned upside down & I was about to lose it all. I had a choice, I could sit at home and cry about how horrible things were or I could be calm & embrace a quiet moment, alone in life, evaluating my options & looking for the answers.
I decided, I would do what I do best. I would enjoy the moment & believe that something amazing & beautiful was going to happen. I would believe that all good things will come from this. Thankyou God. For every end, there is a new beginning.
I believe this is true for everyone. If you you are going the right direction. If you stand strong, work hard and never give up. Everything things that could stop you, will miraculously move out of the way & let you pass.
I don’t mean take the carefree way & skip along life, not caring about anyone but yourself. I am saying be smart, listen to what your mind is telling you to do. We all have inner voices. They tell you all your options. You know when you are following the wrong path. You can feel it. You just have to learn to listen & choose the path that leads to a better life, for you and for the people around you.
I used to spend a lot of energy trying to make things work, forcing fate, pushing, pushing, pushing, only to watch it fail. I was taught if something is failing, it was because I wasn’t trying hard enough. I just needed to try harder & make it work. I no longer believe this is true. I now believe that if you work hard at something and it doesn’t succeed, it was not meant to be. I see failure as a sign, that I need to change directions and go another way.
Whether it’s a job, a relationship or a journey in life. The road you are suppose to be on will build itself, before you, it will appear below your feet and never let you fall.
It will be hard, but it will be so worth it. The answers won’t always come easy, but they are there. I’ve learned that with patience and strength I can achieve great things in life. You just need to be willing to take action, be willing to try & ok to fail, as you succeed.
I must never give up, on the things I believe in. During my moments of doubt; I must be willing to stand at every crossroad & patiently wait. I must use these moments, as an opportunity, to look back at the road I have built, knowing the rest is the best to come.
Debbie Smalley (Deb’e)
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