For me, a life focused on self growth & spiritual awareness is important.
I feel that, fault lines run deeper in the heart of those, who cast blame on others.
I believe hate only kills the heart of those who hold it.
While no man may be perfect, it never hurts to try and become the best version of yourself.
So for me, this is a year to be more gracious, to be kinder, to be forgiving, and to be willing to compromise my comforts and sacrifice everything to make it to my next goal.
This year I climbed the mountain. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done for myself. When I got to the top, I was so relieved to cross the finish line. I was Physically & emotionally exhausted… There ate no amount of tears that could of described the feelings. It was a bittersweet moment; my own personal victory.
Like many personal victories, even the ones publically shared. There is always that moment when you look around & see you are on this road alone. It’s yours and no one else’s. You, did this…
While relishing my victories, I must never forget, this couldn’t of happened, Without the help of others. I surpassed so many goals & accomplished sooo much, because there were so many people, who just reached out to me and gave me an unexpected, boost. One step at a time, it took them all to get me here. I am so forever humbled, by the friends I have been so blessed to have.
It’s been 2 weeks since I reached my goal & opened my next room.
Now, I make plans for the new year. I look to the next mountain. It’s so much bigger. The journey’s, seem to be getting harder and harder. As I look at this next year, I have to take a slow & deep breath. I would be lying if I said wasn’t afraid & nervous..
I am mentally preparing myself to expect the unexpected.. I know, with each step up this mountain, there will be more weight added to my pack. I am fearfully aware, I will be climbing in the dark, with no path, potentially by myself, finding my way into uncharted territory.
I know it will be hard, but the optimistic side of me will always win… so I say
“What’s the worst that can happen?? I fail…??? ”
It’s funny but the amazing thing is; every time I have failed at something in life, it has always worked to my benefit later. So I must believe, if I try my hardest, give until it hurts & never give up.. I will succeed.
Now I look to the future… I can see my dreams in the distance. There are so many ways to get there. Each day guides me into the next. I travel by faith alone. Praying that God keeps me strong and continues to provide me, with everything I need to make it up this next mountain.
In 2019 I will stand strong. I can do this, I will reach higher, I will try my hardest, everyday, to multiply my value 100 fold.
I will be Emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially willing to make the sacrifices I need to accomplish my dreams. I will not give up!!!
I pray I see you Traveling with me, down this road. My heart is so much greater with you in it. No journey would be complete, without a life filled with the love of family and friends.
Happy New Year!!! May you always be blessed, with a happy healthy prosperous life.
Debbie Smalley (Deb’e)
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