I spent the first half of my life, investing energy into someone else’s dream. Happy to go through life, Working a job & doing what I was told. There were so many times; I just felt like, I was watering a dead seed; waiting for it to grow. My life path, felt like a slug trail.
I don’t know about you, but I was never really taught to dream. I was taught that, Dreams were only fantasies & life was never going to be fair. We go to work, we go to school, we get married, we have a family, we pay our bills & if we are really lucky, we might get to be happy;
Happiness, was always, a secondary need & love; that was the cherry on the sundae, that the next door neighbors had.
When that snow storm came sweeping into town, things really hit bottom. My survival instincts kicked in. It was do or die. I was alone, out of work & out of pay, for 3 weeks. That snow storm, was a godsend. I was forced to be alone. For the first time, in my life, I was given the luxury & the time to truly, listen to myself or myself(s) LOL.
When life got tough, I got the courage to start following my gut. I decided it was time, to take control. I was going to build my own dream. If I was going to fail in life, it was going to be on my terms.
“My Way!! My life!!! My fault!!!”
Once I made that decision. I was so surprised to find that, happiness, was no longer a secondary need. Infact it was one of the main ingredients, in my life. I was truly happy; down to my soul, happy.
The more I reached, the more I challenged myself, the more I succeeded, the happier my life became.
I no longer think happiness is a secondary need. I now believe that happiness is the wonderful side effect that occurs, when you live a life of substance. When you reach beyond existing, when you think for yourself, when you throw caution to the wind and forget what everyone else thinks, about you or your life. I am not talking about being selfish. I am talking about being strong & free willed. Leading your life & listening to your instincts. To become the best version of yourself.
Everyone’s heart, has a voice, telling them what to do. Everyone, has the desire to create, to be or do something. It might just be, a faint whisper, that you can barely hear; But it’s there. It’s funny, the moment you start to listen, the stronger your inner voice becomes. Things start feeling & going right. You suddenly find, that you are on the right path. As you keep moving forward; you realize all the baracades that stopped you before just start moving out of the way. Life feels easier, work seems more effortless & relaxed. You have energy & strength. Then comes that beautiful moment, when you realize, you are truly, from the depths of your soul, happy.
Not because you are superficial, but because you are strong & confident in life & in love.
Find the strength to listen, Life is telling you where to go. It’s never to late to try, Your not dead yet. Get up and reach for the rails.
Debbie Smalley ( Deb’e)
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